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[058] Random 3am entry!

Oct. 9th, 2006 | 03:07 am
mood: hungryhungry

*Yawns* I should be in bed, I'm more than aware, but... three o'clock came with a very sudden urge to have chocolate chip ice cream. What kind of respectable household doesn't have chocolate chip ice cream in the freezer? Apparently ours, so, my wonderful boyfriend went out to the store to get me some. So, now I'm awake checking my email and everything as I wait for him to come back.

I suppose waking up with random cravings is better than waking up feeling sick (I'm almost to the second trimester! Thank god), but I still feel kind of bad that Cloud went out in the middle of the night. He didn't even complain! In fact, he pretty much didn't even wait for me to finish my sentence before he started putting his socks on. He has been so amazing through the whole thing, I don't know what I'd do without him, I love him so much.

It's kind of funny to think that I'm still absorbing it all, but I can imagine that it's completely normal to do so. Being pregnant is such a life changing experience, but it's one that I've always wanted. It's that taste of a normal life that I have always wanted; I suppose that's a better way to word it. Not everyone can say that they had a part in saving the planet, but so many people can say that they've experienced raising a family... and I can't tell you how much I've always wanted that. Not to blend into the crowd, definitely not, but to experience something that others do. You know, think of something else besides buying a new pair of gloves and imagine what else will bring terror and destruction to the planet. Because those are things that dreams are made of. But, raising a family and thinking of a future? Those are wondeful dreams... not just to me, but to others as well.

It's odd to look down at my stomach and see this tiiiiiiny little bulge there (It's getting difficult to button my pants!! It's so funny that I'm thrilled about this!). I've never been neurotic about my weight, but I always have watched what I ate and, well, okay, I have been a little neurotic about exercising and training (Yeah, that thing that I haven't done recently), so to see anything but a flat stomach is such a shock to me. However, this is different. I can't even begin to describe the feeling of it. Not just Cloud or I rubbing my hands over the baby bulge (it's seriously barely there, but I can notice it. Actually, Cloud noticed it first, I believe), but reading more about it and knowing that we're going to be parents in a little under six months.

Sure, it's a little scary because it is a new experience and there is so much to think of and prepare for before the baby is born. The due date is April 16th, which is sooner than I think, especially knowing that I'm 13 weeks pregnant already. Wow, the time really has gone by so quickly. There is just so much to do! I have to schedule a second ultrasound soon, now that I think about it. I better write it down before I forget. Anyway, the first ultrasound went well... the pictures are on the refrigerator. :D The baby is obviously much bigger now than it was 6 weeks ago... He/She is about three inches according to the website that sends me emails everyday. (I love that website so much, it's adorable! It tells me how many days until my scheduled due date and everything... along with how big the baby is and such. In a way it feels like cheating because I know roughly what is happening, but I'm curious to what is going on!)

But... the excitement of it all is just so incredible. I can't wait to start buying little clothes and getting the nursery all ready for the baby. I think the second ultrasound will not only allow Cloud and I to hear the heartbeat, but be able to determine the gender of the baby. To be honest, I don't really want to know. I want to be surprised. So that means thinking of girl and boy names... which I haven't given much thought to because I don't know! I have a name for a boy, but for a girl? I'm clueless! Cloud and I'll have to give it a lot of thought.

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Oh! I think I heard the door! Yay, Cloud's home! Okay, have a good night, everyone!

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[057] Voice Mail To Rufus

Aug. 28th, 2006 | 03:03 pm
mood: nervousnervous

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[056] Hospital Visit!

Aug. 11th, 2006 | 01:16 pm
mood: accomplishedaccomplished
music: Tifa's Theme -- Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children OST

Omg, I am so excited to post this… and I’ve been squeeing like a crazy fangirl over it since I started writing it… in… um… June. >_> I was a little anxious, but I knew what was going to happen for a while. I just needed to know WHEN, and then I thought, ‘what better birthday present to Cloud than this?’ When I started it, it was only two pages…Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand now it’s 13. :D

Anyway… To sum it up; Tifa makes a little trip the hospital. :D She secretly makes the appointment and goes to Midgar to see the doctor that saved Cloud’s life all those months ago… to have some tests done. (DAMN, that was a long time ago. It’s already August!) After waiting, dealing with fangirls, (<--lol, which was so fun to write, fyi) waiting, waiting, and more waiting in the hospital room (which are just my impatient muses’ favorite pastimes), she finds out the best news of her life. :D Happy birthday, Cloud!!!

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[055] Late night Tifa angst!

Jul. 20th, 2006 | 07:27 pm
mood: boredbored
music: Perfect Moment -- Hyde

((What? You didn't think Tifa was going to angst about the General's death? o_O))

Cloud protected her from herself, what she could’ve turned into, and she was so grateful for that… but that didn’t make the General less dead.Collapse )

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May. 30th, 2006 | 11:20 pm
mood: boredbored
music: Nothing Without You -- Bo Bice

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[053] Bed rest results in Tifa thinking... this is never good.

May. 22nd, 2006 | 05:01 pm
mood: boredbored
music: Till The End Of Time -- Star Ocean III

((Since I have been getting my ASS handed to me in Drakengard -- *grumbles about stupid dragon* -- I figured I would finish this up and post it. Meh, it's not perfect, but gets the point across. Tifa's been lying in bed without answers... getting antsy... and so incredibly bored... so...))

That meant that there was only one more thing that she could do; call up the man who knew everything that went on in Shinra Electric Company. The President.Collapse )

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Mar. 31st, 2006 | 11:55 pm
mood: crushedDevestated


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Mar. 20th, 2006 | 02:44 pm
mood: deviousdevious

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Mar. 12th, 2006 | 02:45 pm
mood: amusedamused
music: Disorientated -- Delta Goodrem

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Feb. 17th, 2006 | 07:57 pm
mood: confusedconfused
music: Adagio for Strings -- Barber

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